stevo and nick (has been edited)

okay for annie, explaining the stevo situation.....

um, its going to be hard to explain for i am not 100% sure myself, but w/e

i really dont like him anymore, i mean a little bit, but not really, know what i mean?
and its equally hard, b/c since i stumbled upon my epiphonic moment i have decided that i dont really want a boyfriend b/c im perfectly happy just being by myself. sometime within the past few months ive lost sight of that, and thought the only way to be happy was to have some guy i could make out with randomly, but now im just having fun and not worying about it. let me assure you im much more happier without the stress. so why complicate things to go out wihta guy who right now i only have luke warm feelings for, who is really a great friend, (i would hate to lose him as such), and the whole time i would end up just feelng akward b/c ive known him as a friend for too long?

answer: i shouldnt!

okay *editing here*

list of reasons i dont (shouldnt) really like him..

we dont have a lot in common:
---I liek COMPLETELY diff. music than him. seriously, if i were on a road trip with him and he picked the music, i might die. he likes all of those conrey songs that are cute every once in a while but would eventually drive me crazy.
---Completely different style in movies. i like cheap thrillers taht are stpid but still funny in my mind. he loves chick flicks, they just make me laugh uncontrollably and the rest of the teary eyed ppl in the theater would be pissed at me.
---hes really, really into soccer. i think i take an active interest into what i know is improtnatn to other ppl, but that doesnt mean its improtant to me. ive never even watched a soccer game and thats all he ever thinks about!
---where the hell would we eat if we started dating, huh? im a very picky eater, i'll try it once to be polite, but i'll prolly hate it. then waht? he doesnt liek most normal food, at least not enough to eat it regularly. and i definitely not a big fan of his kind of food, so what then, huh?
---i take a more active role in politics, economics, news, and religion than he does. i like to have indepth overstations about philosophy and ideas. i dunno if i could do that with him.
---i dont think hed find lewis black hilarious (but few ppl do...) which saddnes me
---hes a phone person, i hate phones (though i did have a very successful several hour lonng phone converstation with him, which defies my very nature b/c i HATE phones. and yeah, twasnt akward or anything.)
---hes more open aned eflirtatious than i am, im more quiet

okay, there is our lack of incommeness

more over... i dont really trust him that much b/c yeah, hes done things to be seen as untrustworthy toward myself. i wouldnt really trust his motives for liking me in general, i would see his liking me more as a way to fill a void in his own life and frankly, i dont want to be a space killer. (listen to that alanis morrisette song, "not the doctor" the old version, not one of her crappy remade ones) i dont even think i like him so much as i like the idea of having someone i kinda care about like me. and the same goes for him, hes prolly just flattered that i "like" him. he might just like me kinda right now b/c i stayed up with him all night distracting him from the fact that lauren doesnt like him, and he might have just seen that as really nice. most importantly, he still likes lauren, and even if he went out w/ me, im sure hed rather be w/ lauren. and that doesnt botherme b/c those two have more in common, at least they have the whole soccer thing going for them. plus, hes more out going than i am; im more quiet. i can thtink of much more

there are good things that hes got going for him too, but those are detrimental to my arugment so i wont bring them up. =P

over view: do i still like him? A LITTLE bit, maybe. But i dont think i really want a boyfriend right now. i feel like im burnin bridges by saying this. and i dont liek the idea of burning bridges! sometimes he says really sweet things... but i dunno, did you catch his new myspace bulletin, "i just dont get it..."? i dunno if its about me or not. but he wont tell me who its about, and thats weird cuz he usually tells me who his crushes are. anyways, i just dont know. i dont want a b/f. i just like being friends. sounds corny but seriously. i like the way ive been feeeling lately, so stress free, happy, in a state of euphoria if you will! i dont wanna lose that. i feel like that guy in the dr. pepper commerical. the one where hes got that g/f and hes buying her tampons and doing her laundry and what not. then she tries to take a drink of his dr. pepper and he runs away with that "Born Free" song playing. and hes running down the street practically skipping, b.c hes FREE. thats how i feel, i just dont think i can share my dr. pepper... (eew, i hate dr. pepper =P)


okay, update on nick...

before he just made me angry by a lack of morals and really just disapointed me...


now hes made me angry cuz hes been a complete asshole to one of my friends

i plan to let him know that i think hes an asshole

and then evily watch him fail math and bio without mine, annie, noras and tiffs help!!!

qotd~"Born free, as free as the wind blows...as free as the sun glows" I think those are the lyrics, but thats just from memory and i have bad hearing.