geh, soo soo soo bored. i dont know why either, i jsut wanna get outta my house really bad. but since i had to make this post a draft after that second sentence, i now know the outcome of my evening, and just incase anyone cares to know... i did nothing of any value. que divertido! well, i watched resident evil, and becasuse years ago i was desensetized completely by hollywood, i might as well have been watching the history channel (which prolly woulda been more intresting). you know whats funny- books have the ability to scare me way, way more than movies. its weird but its true, stephen kings the shining, and Salem's lot have scared me more than any other movie. i cant even get scarred by dreams, weird huh? i mean, i cant even have a real nightmare, no matter how graphic, b/c im never really scared in the dream, and definitely not scared when i wake up. actaully, i feel kinda dead on the inside. soemthings should scare me. it makes me laugh, when ppl around me get scared and im not. we once snuck into emilys unfinished house in the dead of night. i had her pretty freaked out at the idea of a homeless construction worker living in the house. i swear if i wanted to, i coulda given her a heartattack; i had all of these wonderful graphic images going through my head, things i knew would freak emily out. had i described any of these, she prolly woulda made us leave. does that make me dead on the inside?

psssh, i suppose it doesnt matter either way

well, i am mad bored, i wish someone, anyone were online!!

hmmm, so i was reading the lord of the rings books. i just started, im on pg 70 of the first book. im not gonna lie, its a little slow. (i started with the fellowship of the ring, not the hobbit)

lets see, today my mom made us hlep her clean her closet, a barrel full of fun, i promise you. whats weird is that my mom yells at me for listening to my ipod (which she gave me for xmas) while cleaning, which only leads me to wondering why she gave it to me if she didnt want me listenting to it... well, i got around that today, muahaha. since i have been growing my hair longer, the affect has been that it is, well, infact longer! (startling i know) well, anways, i put the nano on my waist, wore a baggy track shirt, and ran the cord up beneath my shirt. then,(cue music) my long hair was able to hide the cord that went from my shirt to my ears. thus, i could listen to music undisturbed!!! now, i had to be careful with this. i could only you one earphone, b/c i had to keep the other ear open to what my mom was sayingk, then to keep her from realizing i was acatully listening to music, i would answer needlessly to things, and randomly call ppl a bum. it worked, i felt accomplished. and yeah, thats what i did today... can you begin to understand now why i was so bored earlier? why i so desperately wanted to get outta my house???

i think im going to get up at around dawn tomorrrow and just go walk around. should be fun, right? i think so anyways. see, i have to clean all day tomorrow (plz rescue me, please, someone!!!) b/c my aunt is comming over which means my house has to be spotless. and she might be staying in my room. which means my mom will want to come into my room and have the whole family clean it. (which i absolutely cant stand at all) i dont know why it drives me so crazy, but i hate when she "helps" me clean my room. the whole time it consists of, "why dont you throw this out? youve had it a real long time... whne was the last time you used it? youre room is too cluttered. lets get rid of this, huh?" then when i do decide to rid myself of some terribly old, ugly sweater or something, shes says, "what? youre getting rid of that? its still looks new! i payed 30 dollars for that!!!"

a.) the item in question is five years old
b.) it was twenty dollars
c.) it was bought for sarah
d.) it was a birthday present from a friend of hers, it didnt cost you a thing...

geh, so thats somethign i really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really (i can go on) dont want to do. so my dawn walk should be a chance to get a little freedom before all the "Help"

eew, i dont want tomorrow to start.


why in NO ONE online? geh, meh, pssh, pfft, ::sigh::, grrr, chhhhh, kkhrrrr, and all of those other noises that show displeasement.

im gonna go now, distract myself in some other, new, inventive way!!!

(who the hell reads this shit anways?)

qotd~"can i be your memory?

...id be your anything..."