recap people

okay so lets recap, more for the enjoyment of the readers than for my own because writing such is not exactly fun....

so for those who werent there to witness my freaking out when chris started texting (which would be everyone but coby {and since only coby and annie read this, this is really only for you annie}), i was freaking out!

so it goes pretty much like this...

chris-- can i ask you something weird or awkward?

me-- yeah sure, we talk about weird stuff all the time, go ahead. ( i figured it was something just weird, not like awkaward...)

chris-- do you have feelings for me?

*cue freaking out stage*
*cue a short convo where coby says if a guy asks that he prolly likes you*
*more freaking out*
*laughing on cobys part b/c its chris*

ashley-- my, that was akward, um... can i ask what brings this up now?

chris-- idk its just that hanging out with you lately i developed some feelings but i dont wanna do anything dumb and plus i want to be sure of my feelings before i say anything. i dont want it to be like last time. idk its confusing.

(((interlude: just so everyone knows, i always thought the word "feelings" was incredibly corney, mainly because i believe i dont have any and anyone who does is just broken.)))

ashley-- i gotta think about this, okay?

chris-- k. sorry that was so weird.

ashley-- no it wasnt, i just need to think.

*cue emily coming over and more freaking out on my part*

so i talk with emily for about an hour, until around 2 in the morning. the converstation can be sumed up as so...

ashley-- i dotn know if i like him or not!!!

emily-- yeah, you do. call him back and tell him you do.

ashley-- but emily, you dont get it, i DONT know if i like him!

emily-- yeah you do, just text him! youre prolly killing the kid. hes prolly miserable. come on, do it.

ashley-- but i dont wanna give him false hope if i dont like him!!!!!

emily-- just do it

*cue the effects of peer pressure*

(((so i send a text to chris, i wont write it out again cuz it was really long. but basically it was something along the lines of-- whoa, deja vu ((for coby, this situation happened back in oct. only the roles were reversed)), um, i just dont know chris. i dont wanna tell you know then end up regretting cuz i just hadnt realized. what if we just tried going out for a week or so? then wed both know how we felt, and if it was weird we could jsut stop and there would be no hard feelings, and wed still be frieds. what do you think?

*cue ashley up for the next three hours*

during these three hours i went outside sat on top of my truck and listend to my music. it was freaking freezing. the whole time i was pissed b/c i figured chris had fallen asleep and didnt get the message. this upset me b/c it isnt fair that i have to be stuck with temporary insomnia (which was totally and completely his fault) while he sleeps it up in his warm bed! yeah well im sitting on the top of my suburban when my dad gets home from work and that lead to a few awkward questions. but yeah. anyways i manage to fall asleep, to no avail seeing as i freaking dreamt about the whole terrible ordeal, which made it a terrible night sleep. i didnt get up for church!

well then this morning chris texts me

chris--hey sorry about last night. i didnt mean to make it akward. ignore what i said, k?

ashley-- oh, okay, then i guess just ignore that really long text i sent you at like 230 in the mornign.

chris-- oh, you did? i didnt get it. okay, that sounds good.

*cue end of ordeal*

now in light of the preceding events... let me share with you all a revelation of the utmost genious.... there is going to be an island

all the girls are going to be on one island, and all the boys on another island. now, our girl island is going to allow several boys, ambercombie modeling type, and they are going to be there soley for our pleasure and reproductive purposes. however, THEY ARE NOT ALLOWED TO TALK! that is key, once boys start talking, theyre useless to us. they cause CONFUSION and MAYHEM! basically in this way the girl island will be perfect, and yeah, yay for the island!

((emily who has seen the movie "the island" says my idea is the same as theyre, and i say wtf??? stop stealing my idea hollywood bastards!!!!!))

okay so im done now

QOTD~"can you say, 'freaking worst weekend ever!?!?"



okay, a bit of editing


W--T--F?!?!?! if you all knew, why didnt you tell me!!!!!! worst freidns EVER.. "oh yeah, we totally knew he liked you!"
why didnt you tell me????
i dunno...


loser wench FACES!