"i missed my favorite concert, stabby rip stab stab"-lmao

hmm, to address the emo quesiton... let me think. well first i would like to say, that i think emo stole some of its emo-ness from me. for example, my supa cool way of talking. yup thats right, emo kids stole it from me. long ago i grew tired of saying stuff like, "today sucks" thus i invented cooler ways of saying things like "today is a black vortex from which none can escape" now really, the only people privaleged to hear such lamentations was my family but whatever. and then my hair style. no its not dyed black with a bunch of random colors, however it is side parted and it does fall in my face. now this is by no choice of my own, my hair simply wont fall any other way. ive tried to make it, it just doesnt work. aside from that, my similiarity to emo ppl is dead. so why be so emo lately and post random song lyrics? first off, i refuse to let emo ppl claim music on a whole as their own. its not fair. im pretty sure that without my ipod i would go crazy, simple as that. music is just one of those few things that makes sense to me in life. therefore, instead of trying to articulate anythign to anybody i can just get them to listen to song and they'll understand perfectly whatever it is im talking about. thus, i often find that instead of writing out long posts that describe me...uh... *cringes for use of the next word* "feelings" i could just post song lyrics. and so i do. i love to find songs that can be taken quite literally. take for example the last song by the all american rejects. well i started playing games i didnt want to play. and i mean that, i really didnt want to play them, i even said "No" but it didnt work and i got swept into playing anyways and now for the first time in my life i actaully do have a dirty little secret (as in I can literally tell no one, its mind boggling, not even emily can be told) that i doubt will ever be kept, and inevitably the whole thing is gonna end up beign just another regret. soo if this is all true... who has to know?

why be emo on a whole? i suppose i could answer very emo-ish and say that my life is a spiraling vortex that empties into a dark abyss into which darkness inevitably prevades.... however, i will be unemo and say, i just am for the moment. i could go into detail why i can no longer stand to be concious, i could tell you why i only ever find joy in listening to music and taking walks, i could tell you i feel the need to distract myself for an entire day just to distract myself from the next.... however, that would also be unevasive and if any thing i am evasive.however if it annoys, i will try to keep my more emo rants for other audiences and be more animated here.