secret passage

so i went looking for a secret passage in my house today... you didnt think i was really gonna do it, did ya? thought i was just fooling around, didnt ya? well you were wrong my friends, DEAD WRONG!!!!!!!

MUAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

okay, moving on. so yeah, i went looking for a secret passage, and i already had an idea where it was, so my search took all of ten minutes. then i found it, dun dun dun!!!! it wasnt as great as i hoped :(... however, i think i can fix it up! i looked for treasure, but was fairly sure there wasnt any, and i guessed right. but im fine with a lack of treasure, b/c i really wanted my passage for its secretness. i plan to make the place over. it will be tons and tons of work! and im not altogether sure wehn i will ever be able to do it, without bringing tons of attention to myself. but i want to, so i just may!!! i just need my family outta the hosue for a few days

*schemes silently to herself*

i want to paint it for one.
get in a decent floor (the real hard part)
light fictures, (easy, there already is adequate light anyways)
easier access (no idea how to do that...)
cooling (not to difficult)
and just more homely in general

its a smaller space than i had hoped :(
but its better than ntohign

i still ahve no idea what i'd use it for, or when, i just really wanna do it
i could get my monstrosity of a phone in their... (fairly difficult) and maybe get it hooked up so i could get calls. but with the limited space it seems pointless... i could make it a studio!!! but what for im not sure.. again limited space... grr, this is difficult. but it will be used for soemthing!!!

*thinks some more*

decides, shes finished here

((editing later))

okay, im getting so excited! yes its lame, but im like a little kid building a fort! i absolutely love it! its going to be sooo impossible. and im sure i could get in big trouble if something went wrong (big big big big big trouble) =/ (first time ive ever made that face, weird.)

okay, im done.

did i mention how much work its gonna be?!?!? i dont even know if its possible. but hey, if theres a will, theres a way, right?? and so so so much time... but im really looking forward to working on it!

geh, soo soo soo bored. i dont know why either, i jsut wanna get outta my house really bad. but since i had to make this post a draft after that second sentence, i now know the outcome of my evening, and just incase anyone cares to know... i did nothing of any value. que divertido! well, i watched resident evil, and becasuse years ago i was desensetized completely by hollywood, i might as well have been watching the history channel (which prolly woulda been more intresting). you know whats funny- books have the ability to scare me way, way more than movies. its weird but its true, stephen kings the shining, and Salem's lot have scared me more than any other movie. i cant even get scarred by dreams, weird huh? i mean, i cant even have a real nightmare, no matter how graphic, b/c im never really scared in the dream, and definitely not scared when i wake up. actaully, i feel kinda dead on the inside. soemthings should scare me. it makes me laugh, when ppl around me get scared and im not. we once snuck into emilys unfinished house in the dead of night. i had her pretty freaked out at the idea of a homeless construction worker living in the house. i swear if i wanted to, i coulda given her a heartattack; i had all of these wonderful graphic images going through my head, things i knew would freak emily out. had i described any of these, she prolly woulda made us leave. does that make me dead on the inside?

psssh, i suppose it doesnt matter either way

well, i am mad bored, i wish someone, anyone were online!!

hmmm, so i was reading the lord of the rings books. i just started, im on pg 70 of the first book. im not gonna lie, its a little slow. (i started with the fellowship of the ring, not the hobbit)

lets see, today my mom made us hlep her clean her closet, a barrel full of fun, i promise you. whats weird is that my mom yells at me for listening to my ipod (which she gave me for xmas) while cleaning, which only leads me to wondering why she gave it to me if she didnt want me listenting to it... well, i got around that today, muahaha. since i have been growing my hair longer, the affect has been that it is, well, infact longer! (startling i know) well, anways, i put the nano on my waist, wore a baggy track shirt, and ran the cord up beneath my shirt. then,(cue music) my long hair was able to hide the cord that went from my shirt to my ears. thus, i could listen to music undisturbed!!! now, i had to be careful with this. i could only you one earphone, b/c i had to keep the other ear open to what my mom was sayingk, then to keep her from realizing i was acatully listening to music, i would answer needlessly to things, and randomly call ppl a bum. it worked, i felt accomplished. and yeah, thats what i did today... can you begin to understand now why i was so bored earlier? why i so desperately wanted to get outta my house???

i think im going to get up at around dawn tomorrrow and just go walk around. should be fun, right? i think so anyways. see, i have to clean all day tomorrow (plz rescue me, please, someone!!!) b/c my aunt is comming over which means my house has to be spotless. and she might be staying in my room. which means my mom will want to come into my room and have the whole family clean it. (which i absolutely cant stand at all) i dont know why it drives me so crazy, but i hate when she "helps" me clean my room. the whole time it consists of, "why dont you throw this out? youve had it a real long time... whne was the last time you used it? youre room is too cluttered. lets get rid of this, huh?" then when i do decide to rid myself of some terribly old, ugly sweater or something, shes says, "what? youre getting rid of that? its still looks new! i payed 30 dollars for that!!!"

a.) the item in question is five years old
b.) it was twenty dollars
c.) it was bought for sarah
d.) it was a birthday present from a friend of hers, it didnt cost you a thing...

geh, so thats somethign i really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really (i can go on) dont want to do. so my dawn walk should be a chance to get a little freedom before all the "Help"

eew, i dont want tomorrow to start.


why in NO ONE online? geh, meh, pssh, pfft, ::sigh::, grrr, chhhhh, kkhrrrr, and all of those other noises that show displeasement.

im gonna go now, distract myself in some other, new, inventive way!!!

(who the hell reads this shit anways?)

qotd~"can i be your memory?

...id be your anything..."

k's choice

so have you ever snuck outta your house at quater till two in the morning to go walk aimlessly through a deserted park? most likely you have... however, have you ever snuck outta your house at quarter till two in the morning with your hair in two braids that would shame pippy longstocking, while wearing pants that are being held up with saftey pin, all with the purpose to go to a deserted park so you can go play on the swings as you listen to K's Choice "Not an Addict"? hell no you havent....

anyways, getting to the point, lyrics below.

Breathe it in and breathe it out
And pass it on, it's almost out
We're so creative, so much more
We're high above but on the floor

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side

The deeper you stick it in your vein
The deeper the thoughts, there's no more pain
I'm in heaven, I'm a god
I'm everywhere, I feel so hot

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)

It's over now, I'm cold, alone
I'm just a person on my own
Nothing means a thing to me
(Nothing means a thing to me)

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)

Free me, leave me
Watch me as I'm going down
Free me, see me
Look at me, I'm falling and I'm falling.

It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive I feel...
It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)
I'm not an addict...

now you see me, now you dont!!

okay, so in attempts to keep my blog identity secret i have done the following... i changed the URL to "fotobucket.blogspot.com" (as you should clearly have found out if youre reading this and ive kept up a decoy blog. (does having a decoy blog make me a loser?) anyways the decoy blog is at the old URL, you can go there and check out my pathetic excuse for having all my old posts suddnely gone. but my family doesnt know anything about blogger or anyhting so i doubt they'll second guess it. oh, i should explain why it was necessary to change. primarily b/c i decided there are things that i dont want my sister reading (like the post im about to post in a minute that i had to save as a draft b/c of reasons) i def. dont want my mom reading any of this, and i think my brother knows it too, and i just dont want him reading my junk.

oh, why change it to "fotobucket,blogspot.com" you ask... i wanted someth8ing that would go more or less unnoticed. yeah, there is still the whole ".blogspot.com" part,but im hopin they just wont notice, or that it wont register in their heads.

um, i havent any more to say on the subject, but theres a very disturbing post b/c i was very very veyr pissed when i wrote it. right now its in draft stage, so allow me if you will to leave and then come back... it'll be below me, so maybe you'll read it first, i dunno, either way, i dont think you'll miss it.